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It’s been 12 years since I’ve seen you. You were prettier, thinner and a hell of a lot more oblivious. You liked to arm wrestle with the boys in your class and would never leave the house in the morning without hot pink lip gloss and a spritz of perfume (I guess some things never change). By the look of it you also had your own version of the “duck face” before it became popular.

Twelve years ago… wow! A lot has changed! Eleventh grade, lots of friends and the biggest worry was if your hair was going to look greasy the next morning. Oh… how trivial you are, little one.

When you’re young you have this preconceived notion that things will be a certain way when you grow up. You will have a perfect job, perfect husband, be married by such and such a time, have a certain number of kids, never get hurt, never lose a loved one, never have unpaid bills. I guess you could say your future is a fantasy – and the further you go into life, you realize that fantasies are just that. They aren’t real. Here are some things I wish I could have told my 16 year old self:

Dear 16 year old self,

  1. See that kid you just made fun of, with your friends? Well, you didn’t outright make fun of her (but you laughed at a mean joke one of your friends made about her in passing – it  still counts as being mean). She will grow up to be a more successful, happy person, than you will ever be. She will be a likable businesswoman who does good to others, because she was hurt so many times by snide remarks from teenagers like you. You think you know it all, but you have no idea. Even if you think that you’re not a bully, laughing while other people bully – is still bullying. You need to learn how to step it up and reach out to these people – not join in the laughter while others tear them down. I am ashamed of you.
  2. You know that boys hand that you’re holding now? The one you think you will never let go of? The one you think you will be with forever? When you finish high school, you will decide to go on and do some sort of post secondary education –  and you will never see him again. Get used to the idea now, because it’s going to happen. High school relationships rarely succeed. You will find someone new – don’t worry. (PS. Just going to throw this in there… your best friend will marry her high school sweetheart, don’t be mad, she is an exception.)
  3. Remember that “cool” city that you can’t wait to move to? You will move there (YAY!!!) –  and it will get boring pretty fast (BOOOO!!!). By the time you’re 26 you will spend your evenings sitting alone on the couch watching reruns of Girls. Please take advantage of your social butterfly status now, while you’re young. You will miss it when you get older. The big city may be fun for a little while, but you’ll soon realize it has its downfalls. It’s nothing like that safe little town you live in now. There are mean, evil people there. Sometimes people get killed, sometimes vehicles are broken into, sometimes children are taken away from their parents. Please be careful and heed the advice your parents taught you at a young age. “Don’t talk to strangers”. I know it sounds dumb, because you will soon be an adult, but you won’t be living at home anymore and you don’t know every person who crosses your path. Keep on walking.
  4. Take advantage of time spent with your family, please! I beg you. In a few years your dad and sister will live on the other side of the country and your mom on the other side of the province. Yes there is a lot of fighting between your parents, between you and your parents, between you and your sister, but soon things will change. Your parents will divorce when you’re in your 20’s and the whole meaning of family will change completely for you. You will have to divide holidays between everyone, you will have to accept new people into your family and you will have to forgive the ones you love the most for taking away that special sense of security. You will be mad, you will hate your parents for awhile, but you will get over it.  You will regret all of the fights, all of the times you could have sat and chatted nicely instead of wanting to punch each other out. Please soak up all of the special moments while you have them, they will soon be gone. Like the saying goes, “you don’t know what you got, till it’s gone”! I’d trade anything right now to be back at age 16 living in a chaotic household, just to know I have people who love me – no matter what. Your whole idea of the word “family” will change immensely – just warning you.
  5. You know that lower abdomen pouch that you constantly obsess over… the one that sticks out so far because you’re so obese at 140 lbs? (Puhhhhlease!) Someday you will have 2 csections, GAIN 140 lbs, lose 100 lbs again and let me tell you, that little stomach that you once had, will be the least of your worries. You may even have to buy a wheelbarrow to drag that thing around after it’s all said and done. Wear that bikini! It’s the only chance you’ll have.
  6. You will likely never have a member of N’SYNC or the Backstreet Boys fall head over heels in love with you (I know, right??? How is that even possible?)  – you will however fall in love with a musician. Please don’t be sad. You will not marry Chris Daughtry, but you will end up with a guy who looks eerily similar and plays the guitar. I got your back – don’t worry.
  7. You don’t know it yet, but you will lose people who mean the world to you. Some without warning, some you’ll see suffer for a very long time – all will change you. Please hold on to the memories. You will feel grief, pain and immense sadness. The only way to get through will be to focus on the good times. One persons passing will make you look at life differently. You will even name your daughter after her. You will miss her everyday and her death will come like a blow to the head. She is still watching you everyday, keep making her proud.
  8. You will fail at many relationships.  You know how you think you’re so tough? Like nothing can hurt you? You need to lose that attitude. You will deal with abuse, pain, deception, lies, unfaithfulness, neglect and anger. Boy, will you cry. Like a baby. Sometimes for days on end. It’s okay! This doesn’t mean you aren’t strong! It means you do what you have to do to make life the best for you. You will hold yourself high enough to be with someone who treats you the way you want to be treated and you won’t settle until you achieve your goal. Don’t let manipulation fool you. Don’t believe everything you hear. Not everyone is genuine.
  9. Be quiet. Stop chat, chat, chatting. You know how you love to have your 2 cents thrown into every conversation? People will get sick of your opinion. If you don’t listen to what other people are saying, you will most likely miss out on a lot of things in life. Some of the wisest people around are those who listen – not those who speak.
  10. Last but not least, don’t try to be someone you’re not. Instead of wasting time and energy on being someone you’re not – just be you. Sure, there’s always room for improvement, don’t get me wrong (and heaven knows you will DEFINITELY need to work on that in the future) just make sure to always be true to yourself. Don’t lose who you are. Don’t forget your morals and how good it feels to help someone in need. Don’t let all of the hurt and anger of your past broken relationships and families consume you. Turn that frown upside down and on a daily basis make the world a better place, even if it’s just opening the door for an elderly woman who is 30 feet behind you at the bank. Life is about helping and caring for others  – you will quickly learn this.

What would you tell your 16 year old self, if given the opportunity? Please feel free to discuss in the comments section!

DS

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